Jesus' Love

I am writing late once again but this time it is not because of insomnia, but rather because I am bursting at the seams to tell you of the Love of Jesus. 

This week the message God spoke to me about being still has resonated inside my heart, my mind, and my soul.  Everyday that I spend meditating on those two words, God reveals something new about what he means by me being still.  Tonight I was at a worship concert at Saddleback and as I was sitting there listening to Meredith Andrews sing I could not help but fight back my tears.  Once again God was speaking directly to me but through her this time.  Every song she sang, even though I had heard it before, sounded as if it was the first time her words had ever reached my ears.  And every word she spoke before she would sing was a message from the Lord about being steadfast in Him, going deeper with Him when He calls, and trusting in Him when we feel lonely or as though we have lost it all.  She then sang the song that has become the theme song for my life right now, You’re not alone.  I love the lyrics of that song so much. 

I search for love

When the night came and it closed in

I was alone

but you found me where I was hiding

and though I'll never ever be the same

It was the sweetest voice that called my name

singing

 

You're not alone

For I am here

let me wipe away every fear

My love I've never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest night

and I'm the one that's loved you all your life

All of your life

 

You cry yourself to sleep

cause the hurt is real

and the pain cuts deep

All hope seems lost

With heartache your closest friend

and everyone else long gone

 

You've had to face the music on your own

but there is a sweeter song that calls you home

**sayin'

 

You're not alone

For I am here

let me wipe away your every tear

My love I've never left your side

I have seen you through the darkest nights

And I'm the one that's love you all your life

All your life

 

Faithful and true... Forever

For my love will carry you....

 

You're not alone

for I... I am here

let me wipe away every fear... Oh yeah

My love I've never left your side

I have seen you through your darkest nights

Your darkest nights

And I'm the one that's loved you all your life

All of your life

As she sang that song I was taken back to my first, real, and only love, Jesus.  I closed my eyes and felt God stir inside of me and an image came into my head.  It was a vision that I was looking at myself on my knees, kneeling before the cross of Jesus.  It was on a hill and the sun was setting and the various orange colors of the sunset were dancing in the sky.  I was weeping as I knelt before the cross and all of a sudden a man in a white robe came up behind me and wrapped his arms around me and gave me comfort, and that man was Jesus.  If I could draw I would replicate this picture on paper so I could save it for the rest of my life.  It was beautiful.

Jesus knows our pain; he understands our hurts more than anyone does.  The reason that He knows this is because He took that pain from us the day He hung on that cross.  He stayed there nailed to the cross all day feeling every hurt, sorrow, pain, and sadness that we all would ever feel throughout our lives as He died that day.  He knows what we are feeling and that is why He is able to comfort us like no one else can.  That is why my vision/image was so surreal to me tonight, because Jesus felt it first so He is the one that can give you and me the true and lasting comfort that we so desperately need at times.  The kind of comfort that we long to receive from our friends and loved ones, but they never seem to get it quite right, that is the kind of comfort and healing that only Jesus can give.  If you understand the kind of pain someone is going through, you are better suited to help them because you actually know what that pain feels like and how to walk through it.  And Jesus is that person for us.  He felt the pain first and therefore He knows how to comfort and heal us.  And it is all because He loves us!  Oh how He loves us so much!  He loves us so much that we can give thanks in knowing that someone understands what we are going through, even if all the walls feel like they are closing in on you.  Jesus loves you so much and wants you to seek after Him, no matter what the cost may be.